Ever since I started the book that I am reading that compares suffering to the story of Job, I have had a passage from chapters 38-40 in my head almost constantly lately. I challenge you to read the whole thing, because it is life-changing, The Lord talks to Job and asks him if he was there when the world was created. It is while Job is really struggling with why everything keeps happening to him, and basically the Lord is speaking to him asking him who he is to question why He does what He does. It’s like He’s reminding Job that it is not all going to make sense right now. This is the Lord speaking:
Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.
Who marked off it’s dimensions? Surely you know!
while the morning stars sang together and all the angels shouted for joy?
Have you ever given orders to the morning, or shown the dawn its place
Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.
Have you entered the storehouses of the snow or seen the storehouses of the hail
Who endowed the heart with wisdom or gave understanding to the mind?
Does the hawk take flight by your wisdom
Will the one who contends with the Almighty correct him?
Then Job responds:
I am unworthy- how can I reply to you?
I put my hand over my mouth.
I spoke once, but I have no answer-
twice, but I will say no more.
Not that this lesson is learned over night or that I won’t continue to question the reasoning behind life’s unexplainable events, but reading this passage reminds me time and time again, that who am I to question the creator? My response continues to come back to Job’s, and I will put my hand over my mouth and say no more. For I know that His thoughts are not my thoughts and His ways are not my ways. His ways are higher. He created my baby girl to live for 4 days only, and who am I to question why?