Dan found a video on his phone from when we were at the beach in May. It was a funny video of the dogs playing in the sand, and at the very end of it, he turned the video to me and told me to show him Mary Anna. I turned towards him, and I showed the camera my pregnant belly, and with the sweetest tone in his voice, he said, “Hey Mary Anna, I love you and I can’t wait to meet you!” How precious. It of course brought tears of joy to our eyes to think about how happy we were anticipating her little life. We made it a daily activity to talk to her during the whole pregnancy. At first it felt a little silly, but slowly we didn’t care how silly we were, because we really wanted her to know our voices.
We took some time to look some of her pictures, and then we watched another video on his phone from the hospital, where as soon as he started talking to MAC, she opened her tiny little eyes and looked at him. We have a few videos where that happens in, and it is so precious to us that she knew our voices. Even right after she was born, literally minutes after, there’s a video of Dan saying something to her, and she opens her little eyes up for the first time at the sound of her daddy’s voice.
It made me think a lot about how much time it takes to learn our Heavenly Father’s voice. So many times if we aren’t careful, we can end up listening to the world and not to Him. In the midst of pain, Dan and I have learned to listen more and hear what the Lord is trying to tell us, but I think back on so many times in the past, when my ear was not in tune to hearing what He was trying to tell me. Just like if we did not focus on teaching Mary Anna our voice then she would not have opened her eyes every time we spoke, if we do not learn His voice, then we will not be able to open our eyes to Him. I’m empty today missing her so bad, but I continue to feel so blessed at all the things that she is teaching me. Who would have thought that she would teach me how important it is to listen to our Heavenly Father, by showing us how much it means to us that she knew our voices.
My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.