Sep 19

It’s okay

So I was at my workout class this morning, and this song came on during the end of the class and the lyrics said this:

It’s okay to not be okay…
Just be true to who you are…
Unfortunately I’m not up on my pop music right now, and I don’t have any idea the context of these words, but yep, I started tearing up during abs at my class. I kinda just needed to hear that it’s okay to not be okay.
I am a hot mess saved by grace. 
My strength, or lack there of, is not my own. 
The thing is sometimes people tell me that they feel guilty for complaining or thinking that whatever is going on in their life is hard. When they look at me, some people don’t know what it feels like to lose their child. In all reality, we all are in a valley one way or another. It isn’t supposed to all make sense here on earth, and it’s okay to be real. I’ve told all my people that I don’t want them to not be open about their lives with me just because I lost Mary Anna. I mean that.
So as corny as it is, no matter what your struggle is right now, whether it is your marriage, death, friendships, weight, job, family, etc; it’s okay to not be okay.
I know that my redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand on the earth.
And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God;
I myself will see him with my own eyes- I, and not another.
How my heart yearns within me!
Job 19: 25-27