As I have read and thought and prayed over these two little words, hope and courage, I have learned so much. According to the dictionary, Courage is: the ability and willingness to confront fear, pain, danger, uncertainty, or intimidation. Then this past week, I found a definition of the word hope in my devotional that said that hope is: the expectation of a favorable future under God’s direction.
Here is the truth, Dan and I found out a few days before Thanksgiving that we were expecting another baby. It has taken us a lot of hope in the future and courage to walk through these past few months as we were scared to get excited due to our history of miscarriages, and then we dreaded doctors appointments, because with our precious baby girl it seemed that each time we would walk into an office, we would leave in tears with bad news.
Courage- the WILLINGNESS to confront fear, uncertainty, pain….
Hope- the EXPECTATION of a favorable future under God’s direction….
I have read these definitions over and over. We are willing to confront these fears and the pain, because it means the joy of another child, and we have hope in the future.
It’s all so tricky, because Dan and I are thrilled that Mary Anna will be a big sister, but we are still processing her short life and the life of this next baby has added a lot of emotions to grieving our girl, but we know that the Lord’s timing is perfect. After Mary Anna went to heaven, we prayed that He would provide another baby, when He knew that we were ready. We know that this baby is a gift, and we have hope in its’ future, and we have courage to wake up each day rejoicing over this new life and rejoicing over our baby girls life.