Feb 06

Hope and Courage

Recently I wrote about hope, and I have not been able to get that little word out of my head. As we have been processing quite a lot lately, we have had to learn how to hope in a deeper way. The thing that has struck me though is that it takes great courage to be able to begin to hope again. I have never thought of myself as this courageous person that has the desire to climb Mt. Everest or run a marathon or do things that people who have courage do. Goodness, I do not even like to go camping! 

As I have read and thought and prayed over these two little words, hope and courage, I have learned so much. According to the dictionary, Courage is: the ability and willingness to confront fear, pain, danger, uncertainty, or intimidation. Then this past week, I found a definition of the word hope in my devotional that said that hope is: the expectation of a favorable future under God’s direction.

Here is the truth, Dan and I found out a few days before Thanksgiving that we were expecting another baby. It has taken us a lot of hope in the future and courage to walk through these past few months as we were scared to get excited due to our history of miscarriages, and then we dreaded doctors appointments, because with our precious baby girl it seemed that each time we would walk into an office, we would leave in tears with bad news.

Courage- the WILLINGNESS to confront fear, uncertainty, pain….
Hope- the EXPECTATION of a favorable future under God’s direction….

I have read these definitions over and over. We are willing to confront these fears and the pain, because it means the joy of another child, and we have hope in the future. 

It’s all so tricky, because Dan and I are thrilled that Mary Anna will be a big sister, but we are still processing her short life and the life of this next baby has added a lot of emotions to grieving our girl, but we know that the Lord’s timing is perfect. After Mary Anna went to heaven, we prayed that He would provide another baby, when He knew that we were ready. We know that this baby is a gift, and we have hope in its’ future, and we have courage to wake up each day rejoicing over this new life and rejoicing over our baby girls life.

Be on guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong. Do everything in love.
1 Corinthians 16:13-14

My mom sent me this picture while Mary Anna was in the hospital, and I would look at it during those short days, and think that if I just let her rest now, then maybe in fact she will move mountains.

I am such a proud mommy.

My baby girl is doing that, and even though it’s not the way we planned, we couldn’t be more excited to see how the Lord will use this baby too. We serve a big God.

There is something that this big God does require of us and that is to have courage and to put your hope in Him.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
Proverbs 13:12

Keep Walking

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/03559851267066311204 Beth

    Congratulations to you, Dan and Mary Anna!! Prayers for you as you walk Keep Walking on your journey!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/03447935912902853120 Susan Allen

    This is good news indeed. To God be the glory, great things He has done.

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/02819271744533243263 Danielle

    Kari, I’m so happy for you! I try to stay up on your blog every few days. I know this has been hard and we are praying for you over these next few months!