Nov 24

Contentment

I learned this morning that the Lord speaks, but I do have to listen to hear what he is trying to say. Lately, I have not been in the mood to listen, so I have kinda tuned Him out, and I have listened to myself and had some serious pity parties. Not good. Today was the second day in a row that He made something very clear to me. Like I wrote yesterday, I have not only had that verse on repeat in my head, but also this one.

I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 
Philippians 4:11-12

I have struggled with how Paul could be content in all circumstances. Lately I have tended to question the future and be a little mad in my circumstance, but I have felt the call to find contentment. Now let me interrupt here and say that being content right now is not easy, but I just knew for some reason that contentment should be my ultimate goal. Obviously it will not totally happen here on earth, but I am trying to rest in the life of my baby girl and know that her life, although way too short, was for a purpose, and in that purpose I can somehow find contentment.
All this to say, of course, the sermon today was on thankfulness, and early on, our pastor read this verse from Philippians, and I thought to myself, “DANG-IT, I wanted to run from contentment, but you are making it pretty clear this is what I should run to and not away from… ok, ok, ok.” Then he read this verse:
And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
2 Corinthians 9: 8

So, every rebuttal that I wanted to have to the truth was swallowed up in this verse. In ALL things. At ALL times. Having ALL that you need. I WILL abound in every good work. He ended his sermon saying that thanksgiving is our response to the gospel. In the midst of my ups and downs in deciding how I want to respond to Thursday, I know that I need to respond in thanksgiving if nothing more than because of the gospel. Finally, we sang this little song that I had never heard before, and it just confirmed what I needed to hear.
In living or in dying.
ALL must be well.