There is something that I lucked up on and that’s my dad. He is a wise one that is for sure. I remember when I was growing up that something would happen or I would get in trouble or something, and he would say, “You see Ked… this reminds me of a story in the Bible.” My brilliant, over-confident teenage self would be like, “Here we go again!”. I have learned to listen more as he starts to speak. My dad isn’t always the first to speak, but when he does speak up, most of the time it’s worth listening to.
Here’s a visual of the old vet for those of you out there who need one. I am definitely one of those, so I try to be considerate of that need from time to time. Anyways, back to the point, shortly after things settled down a little with Mary Anna, and Dan and I were at home more, my dad called one day to give us a little tidbit of his wisdom. He said that he was listening to a sermon or remembered one or something, and it was talking about being still. So, he challenged us to go sit in the nursery and just be still. Dan and I had been walking by the nursery and glancing in here and there, but the thought of going and just sitting in our empty nursery, ok old man, are you kidding me?! Being the good obedient child that I am, I said, “o.k. D let’s go do this.” Dan and I walked up the stairs and around the corner with the dogs and just sat down. We both proceeded to just sob. Then slowly after the crying stopped, we began to smile and laugh a little. It was a very healing moment.
The kicker is that I am a very stubborn person. I tend to need to hear things a few times before I actually do them and not think that I know best. I would go in there from time to time and try to be still, but I did not want to really be still. It wasn’t about just being still in the nursery, it was about being still period. So, in true fashion, I went to lunch on Mary Anna’s due date with a dear friend and her sweet mommy. They called to love on me that day a little, and as soon as I got there, they asked me lots of things about Mary Anna. I will never forget her mom at one point saying, “You know Kari, after what I have been through, I learned that sometimes you just need to slow down and be still and just listen to the Lord.”. It hit me. I was keeping myself busy with so many things that were masked as good or necessary things that I was not letting myself just be still.
This morning I wanted to write something before the business of the day began, and nothing worthwhile was coming to mind. I hopped in the shower, and I kept hearing in my head, “Just be still Kari.” For the first time to date, I listened and grabbed my Bible and went and sat in the nursery and read: