As my mom told me the story it caused me to stop and think how I would answer that question in the future. If someone asks, “Do you have children” or eventually, “Is this your first child”, how would I answer that. I thought the girls answer was so elegant and raw, “No, my firstborn is in heaven.” I want to have the courage to answer that way.
We are at the beach right now, and this morning Dan and I went on a little stroll before the rain came in. I started telling him the same story, because I hadn’t had a chance to yet. He told me about a conversation that he had at a vet conference recently, where a professor asked him if he had any children. He paused and in the situation did not know how to respond. It was so soon, and so he just quietly said, “no”. Throughout the rest of his conversation with this professor he kept bursting to tell him about Mary Anna, but he didn’t know how.
Dan and I both agreed that from now on that we would always say, no matter what the audience is, that “yes, we have a baby girl and she is in heaven”. As we finished our walk and the rain started slowly coming down I could not help but wonder if she heard the same thunder rolls that I did. It was so symbolic of our walk right now. As we begin to Keep Walking and make a step forward, the rain is always there slowly coming down to remind us that even though we are walking, we are still in the storm.